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hello all Andrew again, I didn't really say much about how I was doing.  Sorry if I haven't contacted anyone I was having a hard time , but now I'm feeling a little bit better.  I missed everyone here!  Truthfully I haven't been going to church for about 4 months now.  The reason was because I was going to this korean church in Korea for 3 years.  It was really fun worshiping God with the church members and our college group.  It was a good environment, but thats what I thought.  During the college group bible studies we talked about everything, about what God said to us and shared QT.  I was really close to them , really felt like family, since doesn't feel like I have one anymore.  I was getting really close to God and it felt really good.  Then the people at the church really hurt me and even the college group even though we talked about everything about God and even hung out and stuff.  It seemed like we we never friends or family.  It's like they never cared for me at all , well the story is very long and dont' want to get to everything right now.  I even had a vision it was really strong and powerful.  I never felt anything like that before.  Because of the church and fellow college group members that I was with for 3 years and talked about the bible and did everythign together and enjoyed worshiping together the vision and what I felt kinda went away.  I feel better now , but I'm very confused now because of what that church has taught me, I can't really trust them so everythign they taught me its hard to believe.  I'm doing fine but spiritually is hurting realy bad.
It's like going to school and the teacher didnt' teach you correctly and you get confused. 

Sorry about talking a lot ㅋㅋㅋ  just wanted to know what you guys think.
I love God and know he's going to show me the way , its just it hurts in my heart sometimes.

                                        Andrew